Showing posts with label book. Show all posts
Showing posts with label book. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Weekend of Twenties Girl and Twilight.

I just love long weekends, even though without any travel plans sometimes they're not so bad at all. Last Chinese New Year weekend for instance, I finally managed to finish my Twenties Girl that I have bought two weeks ago, I think! Finally! It's a great book, Sophie K, is just a brilliant writer. I bet it would be a great movie too! I am so hoping, it'll be turned into a movie. Though, I really hope that they would keep to the story line to the letter, unlike the Shopaholic, it was a great movie, but it steered too far from the original storyline in the book, I found that a wee bit disappointing!

I actually had a great motivation to finish Twenties Girl fast. I sometimes like to take my time reading a book, either because it's a great read and I just want to take my time with it, or (I know that doesn't make sense... but sometimes I can take my time reading even if it's a good book), but usually, I would take my time if I don't have any book waiting to be read. Unlike last weekend, I had Twilight, waiting on my side table. Ooooh, I just cannot wait to see what is all the fuss about Twilight that compels some people to go on and on about it!!! Now I know! Hmmm I am simply stumped! It is really a good book, I may have spoilt the effect a little bit, cause I actually caught the movie on Astro already. I was pretty impressed that the movie was an almost perfect adaptation of the book, though if I would have replaced the Edward character with Collin Farrell in a split second (though it is quite difficult for Collin Farrell to pass as a 17 year old), sigh! Anyhow, the book yes I finished it in less than 2 days! It was superb!!! Very good writing I must say!!! Really made me "hungry" for more! Love it, love it.


If you wish to read about how Stephenie Meyer came up with the book. Well there is actually a story behind Twilight... read here. Here's a short excerpt...

The Writing: I know the exact date that I began writing Twilight, because it was also the first day of swim lessons for my kids. So I can say with certainty that it all started on June 2, 2003. Up to this point, I had not written anything besides a few chapters (of other stories) that I never got very far on, and nothing at all since the birth of my first son, six years earlier.

I woke up (on that June 2nd) from a very vivid dream. In my dream, two people were having an intense conversation in a meadow in the woods. One of these people was just your average girl. The other person was fantastically beautiful, sparkly, and a vampire. They were discussing the difficulties inherent in the facts that A) they were falling in love with each other while B) the vampire was particularly attracted to the scent of her blood, and was having a difficult time restraining himself from killing her immediately. For what is essentially a transcript of my dream, please see Chapter 13 ("Confessions") of the book.


Though I had a million things to do (i.e. making breakfast for hungry children, dressing and changing the diapers of said children, finding the swimsuits that no one ever puts away in the right place, etc.), I stayed in bed, thinking about the dream. I was so intrigued by the nameless couple's story that I hated the idea of forgetting it; it was the kind of dream that makes you want to call your friend and bore her with a detailed description. (Also, the vampire was just so darned good-looking, that I didn't want to lose the mental image.) Unwillingly, I eventually got up and did the immediate necessities, and then put everything that I possibly could on the back burner and sat down at the computer to write—something I hadn't done in so long that I wondered why I was bothering. But I didn't want to lose the dream, so I typed out as much as I could remember, calling the characters "he" and "she."

From that point on, not one day passed that I did not write something. .... Well, all I can say is that I'm really glad that Stephenie Meyer continued writing.

I am so ready for New Moon! Well, I actually just got the book this morning, so there is a tiny possibility that I might sleep late tonight!




Saturday, February 06, 2010

Finally I'm reading Sophie Kinsella again.

I was at my favourite bookstore last weekend, and was browsing the chick lit section (but of course), trying to decide on a book, when my eyes fell on the display. Oh, Twenties Girl!! Finally on paper back!!! Yeay!!! So I'm reading it now, so far so good. I a big fan obviously... I have read all her books to date.



Zaim managed to get away with a book for himself too.


Thursday, October 29, 2009

Guess what came in the mail today?


Something unexpected came in the post for me today. Well truthfully, I am expecting this package but only sometime next week. However, it arrived much earlier. I love good surprises like this. I have been wanting to come up with this Photobook for quite sometime but have been stalling. At first it was the issue of which pictures to photobook, shall I do a collection or a particular subject. Since the last Hari Raya, I took quite a lot of pictures, I thought of giving it a shot. I didn't spend much time on it. I didn't even post in a lot of texts. Finally on Monday, I managed to finalised everything and sent it out. Unexpectedly, it arrived today.That was really quick. The result? I am satisfied with it totally. Love it! Will be doing more of this I'm sure.


The package.

Ta-daaa

I was quite nervous to flip the pages initially.

Some I had pictures as the background.


Some I chose just plain background.
This photobook, is even better than a normal photo album I think. It just requires a wee bit of investment, financial and time mostly. With a little bit of thought and love, it can be a real worth while thing to have. Think you want to give it a try check photobook.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Every family is a ghost story...

That was on the first page of the book. Should have flipped the first few pages before I purchased the book. From that sentence alone, I should have realised that it would set the theme for the rest of the book right? I should have known. The rest of the book is as sombre, dark and depressing as that 1st sentence. Really!

Mitch Albom's For One More Day reminds me again why I always go back to Chick Lit. Sigh! I should have known that his writing style, would not be so different from his last book that I read which was 5 People You Meet in Heaven. It's depressing and sad, just not my cup of tea. To think that I wasted my Times Birthday Voucher on this book, luckily this was not my only purchase. Should have bought a Nigella's book instead of this one.

Anyhow, for those who have not read the book here's the excerpt, right from the official website itself. For One More Day is the story of a mother and a son, and a relationship that covers a lifetime and beyond. It explores the question: What would you do if you could spend one more day with a lost loved one?

As a child, Charley “Chick” Benetto was told by his father, “You can be a mama’s boy or a daddy’s boy, but you can’t be both.” So he chooses his father, only to see the man disappear when Charley is on the verge of adolescence.

Decades later, Charley is a broken man. His life has been crumbled by alcohol and regret. He loses his job. He leaves his family. He hits bottom after discovering his only daughter has shut him out of her wedding. And he decides to take his own life.

He makes a midnight ride to his small hometown, with plans to do himself in. But upon failing even to do that, he staggers back to his old house, only to make an astonishing discovery. His mother -- who died eight years earlier -- is still living there, and welcomes him home as if nothing ever happened.
It's not all negative, I must admit. I guess it's quite beautiful in its own dark Mitch Albom way. There are lessons to be learnt by fathers and mothers out there. I mean, how can a father says to his child, “You can be a mama’s boy or a daddy’s boy, but you can’t be both.” I mean, see what happens to the character after that he has decided to be a daddy's boy only to have the man dissapeared out of his life, with no explanations or nothing. He spends his whole life chasing after the shadow of his father, while he totally overlooked his mother's love and sacrifices. I also find that the mother's habit of leaving a note on important/special days of the boy, like first day at school/in college etc etc to be rather cute. Perhaps I should do that to my children, though if they have handphones, I could text. But then again, you cannot keep a text forever! Plus, that would give me a good reason to get some good stationery. Now that's a thought. Ok, I guess I ve strayed from discussing this book to shopping.

I guess, if you like Mitch Albom's writing, yes you should go ahead and get this book. Or you can borrow mine, or better yet you can buy mine??? Ha!ha!ha! Just a thought. You know how to reach me...

After that depressing book I am looking forward to my next one, I just started on this new writer (to me at least) Stephanie Laurens. What attracted me to pick this book was of course the cover... Look at this. Isn't it just so beautiful??? Yeah, yeah, you are not supposed to judge a book by its cover but I just cannot help it. Ha!ha! I don't know how good it is yet, cause I just started. Will update once I have finished. A little preview...

Where the heart leads...

Penelope Ashford, Portia Cynster's younger sister, has grown up with every advantage—wealth, position, and beauty. Yet Penelope is anything but a pretty face in a satin gown—forceful, willful, and blunt to a fault, she has for years devoted her considerable energy and intelligence to caring for the forgotten orphans of London's sooty and seamier streets. But now her charges are mysteriously disappearing. Desperate, Penelope turns to the one man she knows who might help her—Barnaby Adair. Handsome scion of a noble house, Adair has made a name for himself in certain circles where his powers of observation and deduction have seen him solve several serious and unsavory crimes within the ton. His pedigree, relentless intelligence, and discretion make him a deadly avenger in an elegant guise. Despite his skills—or perhaps because of them—he makes Penelope distinctly uncomfortable, but the stakes are too grave. Throwing caution to the wind, defying every rule for unmarried ladies, she appears on his doorstep late one night determined to recruit his talents.

Till later, ciao!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Sajian Tradisi bersama...

Read about the launching of this new Recipe book by Chef Wan at Avon outlets in the papers.

This book won the Best In the World cook book Award in the fund raising cookbooks category.



Zila bought one for herself. We all oggled over the beautiful pictures of the many many traditional recipes compiled. She was kind enough to go to the Avon outlet across the street again to get us our own personal copies each. Hmmm so now, we are flipping the pages over and over again trying to find some inspiration for our buka puasa meal this evening, myself excluded. Why? Well, because yours truly here is still staying at mom's. Zaim is not 2 yrs old yet, so we are not moving out just yet. In the mean time, I am enjoying mak's home cooked meal daily a.k.a no cooking for me. Less headache especially during Ramadhan! I have never bought any of his cook books, though I have leafed through his other books at the book shops but always ended up putting the books back down. Don't know why. Perhaps I should start collecting, to add to my Nigella's & Jamie's books. After all, he is now the Best Celebrity Television Chef in the World!!


So, since I am not gonna be cooking this coming few days, instead of me coming up with a checklist of what I plan to cook, I'm listing a few dishes here that I wish to have for my buka puasa one of these days...

Gulai Lemak Siput Sedut

Sambal Goreng Kacang Botol
(maybe minus the prawns, since I am no fan of prawns)
Kerabu Pucuk Paku bersama Kerang

Urab Nangka dan Tempe
(before buying this recipe book, I have never heard of this word Urab.
But I love nangka muda and tempe, I'm sure it tastes as good as it looks)


On the last page, there's like 10 handy cooking tips from the great chef.

As for the rest of the recipes in the book, PGYO* to find out!
Pictures courtesy of Zila's wonderfully amazing but really not cheap Nokia N97, thanks babe. I surrender to your 5 megapixel camera! best giler!


*please get your own


Friday, June 12, 2009

Jane Green - The Beach House



My latest read was Jane Green's The Beach House, courtesy of Izam. It took me quite sometime to finish it, because it was one of those huge paperbacks. Not the size that you'd pack into your handbag and carry everywhere ) not even if your handbag is a Neverfull GM, trust me!

I have always liked Jane Green, this one is quite good too. Took me a awhile to get the pace of not being able to put it down, simply because I did not diligently pick up this huge book.


Here's the synopsis from Jane Green's site :


Known in Nantucket as the crazy woman who lives in the rambling house atop the bluff, Nan doesn’t care what people think. At sixty-five-years old, her husband died twenty years ago, her beauty has faded, and her family has flown. If her neighbors are away, why shouldn’t she skinny dip in their swimming pools and help herself to their flowers? But when she discovers the money she thought would last forever is dwindling and she could lose her beloved house, Nan knows she has to make drastic changes.
So Nan takes out an ad: Rooms to rent for the summer in a beautiful old Nantucket home with water views and direct access to the beach. Slowly, people start moving into the house, filling it with noise, with laughter, and with tears. As the house comes alive again, Nan finds her family expanding. Her son comes home for the summer, and then an unexpected visitor turns all their lives upside-down.

Some of the other books by Jane Green that I enjoyed are: Bookends, Babyville, Jemima J, Mr Maybe.
My new book that I have started is Danielle Steel's Rogue. From time to time, I would go back to DS, I couldn't find Jeffry Archer's latest that was in the Top 10 list, perhaps my next book, or perhaps after another trashy Chic Lit first. I can only take so much of tragic, dramatic, heavy reading at one time. Yes, I even consider Danielle Steel as heavy reading. Sometimes, her characters get into such tragic accidents or mishaps that it's just unbearable to read. I remembered reading Kaleidescope when I was still in school, I cried like hell, after finishing it. Crazy! I do not need such stress right now. At page 5, Rogue doesn't sound that scary, maybe it's too soon to tell. Come back in a few weeks time, I might have an update on it.




Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Just finished reading




Incidentally that eventful Saturday morning when it happened, just before I went to sleep, I just finished a good book by Catherine Alliot, A Crowded Marriage.

A Crowded Marriage by Catherine Alliot
Review by Veronica Kirby (http://www.handbag.com/lifestyle/books/crowded-marriage-review/)

What's the story?

There are already three people in Imogen Cameron's marriage - herself, her husband, Alex, and their son, Rufus - and that's just the way she likes it. But then the Camerons are forced to accept an offer from Eleanor Latimer of a rent-free cottage on her estate. Ordinarily, such an offer is not to be sniffed at but as Eleanor happens to be Alex's beautiful, rich and frankly flirtatious ex, Imogen is very sniffy indeed. And with good reason.
Once installed in Shepherd's Cottage, Imogen's life is suddenly full to bursting with surly locals, psychotic chickens, mountains of manure, visits from the infuriatingly bossy vet, and of course Eleanor; who seems to be permanently at Alex's side. As far as Imogen's concerned, two's a marriage, three's a family and this! Well, this is just silly, someone's going to have to go. The question is who?
Look here too

Who would like this?Lovers of well-written women's fiction should welcome this latest Alliot novel for its touching story and laugh-out-loud lines. Fans of authors such as Cathy Kelly, Jill Mansell and Patricia Scanlan will enjoy any of Catherine Alliot's offerings.
Will I get bored?Not likely. Catherine Alliot's books are bestsellers because they're full of likeable characters, real emotion and great laughs.

Saturday, June 02, 2007

The Nanny Diaries

Finished reading the book already, good read. Very interesting to see how the rich people live well at least the rich ones in NY. Makes me think about my own relationship with the kids. Well, at least I don't leave notes around the house for my maid on monogrammed stationery.
Found out that they even have a movie out starring, Scarlett Johansson. Nice! I have always loved reading a book then go watch the movie.I know most people prefer it the other way round, but I still prefer reading the original thing first before watching the adaptation. I find it interesting to watch how they transform the idea of the authors into the movie. Whether or not they have chosen the right casts, the set, costumes etc etc. I like it. Can't wait to watch the movie.

If you are like me, book first before the movie, below is the sysnopsis of the book for your preview...


Synopsis :

Wanted:One young woman to take care of four-year-old boy. Must be cheerful, enthusiastic and selfless--bordering on masochistic. Must relish sixteen-hour shifts with a deliberately nap-deprived preschooler. Must love getting thrown up on, literally and figuratively, by everyone in his family. Must enjoy the delicious anticipation of ridiculously erratic pay. Mostly, must love being treated like fungus found growing out of employers Hermès bag. Those who take it personally need not apply. Who wouldn't want this job? Struggling to graduate from NYU and afford her microscopic studio apartment, Nanny takes a position caring for the only son of the wealthy X family. She rapidly learns the insane amount of juggling involved to ensure that a Park Avenue wife who doesn't work, cook, clean, or raise her own child has a smooth day. When the Xs marriage begins to disintegrate, Nanny ends up involved way beyond the bounds of human decency or good taste. Her tenure with the X family becomes a nearly impossible mission to maintain the mental health of their four-year-old, her own integrity and, most importantly, her sense of humor. Over nine tense months, Mrs. X and Nanny perform the age-old dance of decorum and power as they test the limits of modern-day servitude. - From the Publisher [from : http://www.candycoveredbooks.com/].

No, I still have not finished ... The Guy Not Taken by Jennifer Weiner.

My next book, just bought it at Times Bookshop, found it at the 25% off pile of books ... A Crowded Marriage by Catherine Alliot.

I am so torn, should I finish the JW book first or start on my fresh really thick new one?

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Still thinking of you

What were you thinking??? Thought I was gonna write about something more interesting and juicy huh! Well sorry hunny! That was just the title of the latest Chic Lit that I just finished in a weekend. Read almost 5/8th of it yesterday, and halfway throughout the Final AF Concert (yawn!yawn!), halfway through was because that was the length of time I was at my mom in law's, then we left, so then I got hooked on the movie Just Friends starring Ryan Reynolds. If you ever come across this movie when you are switching channels, watch it. It is hilarious. Good laugh even after midnight!
Finished it this morning and already returned it to the library. Yeah, and I didn't even pay a single cent. Just discovered last weekend that my library do stock up some chic lits. Thanks goodness, I am not stuck to Sidney Sheldon, Danielle Steele and the likes of other "old school authors".


Here's the synopsis in case you are curious:


THE WHOLE TRUTH . . .Rich has always been skeptical about falling in love. Natasha has always fully expected to. And when these two find each other, they win the entire True Love package -- tenderness and hot sex and open-eyed kisses. Long weekends in bed and talk of marriage and babies. The kind of love where there's no room for secrets. That, after all, is what Tash says will keep them going strong: total and complete honesty.. . . AND NOTHING BUT?Now Rich and Tash are engaged, and Rich's old school friends crash into their love cocoon with big plans for celebrating, along with spouses and significant others, on a trip to a stunning French ski resort. But a lot can happen in a week that's meant to capture the free-spirited fun they all shared a decade ago. And in the glare of a whiteout on the slopes, Tash crosses paths with the one secret Rich should have kept: his colorful, vivacious, needy ex-lover, Jayne. . . . -


From the Publisher (courtesy of http://www.candycoveredbooks.com/)


My next book is : The Nanny Diaries by Nicola Kraus & Emma McLaughlin

I have wanted to read this book for quite sometime now but unsure whether it was worth to buy it. Since I can borrow it now, why not?




Saturday, May 19, 2007

The Book in My Handbag at the moment



It's The Guy Not Taken by one of my favourite authors Jennifer Weiner. Date bought 20/04/2007. As of today I am only at page 105 of 292 pages. I found out only after I bought it that it was a collection of short stories.

Here's the Synopsis:

Jennifer Weiner's talent shines like never before in this collection of short stories, following the tender, and often hilarious, progress of love and relationships over the course of a lifetime. From a teenager coming to terms with her father's disappearance to a widow accepting two young women into her home, Weiner's eleven stories explore those transformative moments in our every day.We meet Marlie Davidow, home alone with her new baby late one Friday night, when she wanders onto her ex's online wedding registry and wonders what if she had wound up with the guy not taken. We stumble on Good in Bed's Bruce Guberman, liquored-up and ready for anything on the night of his best friend's bachelor party, until stealing his girlfriend's tiny rat terrier becomes more complicated than he'd planned. We find Jessica Norton listing her beloved New York City apartment in the hope of winning her broker's heart. And we follow an unlikely friendship between two very different new mothers, and the choices that bring them together -- and pull them apart.The Guy Not Taken demonstrates Weiner's amazing ability to create characters who "feel like they could be your best friend" (Janet Maslin) and to find hope and humor, longing and love in the hidden corners of our common experiences.
My 2 cents worth:

I'm taking a long time to finish reading this book because I don't find the book really interesting not like her other writings. Don't get me wrong, I have no problem with collection of short stories. I absolutely love Jeffrey Archer's, A Quiver Full of Arrows, that was superb writing, I couldn't put the book down, at some point, I was afraid of turning the page cause I was worried about where the stories were heading... the suspense was crazy! But back to this book, well... I can wait.

Monday, April 30, 2007

Sisters of My Heart

No, I don't have any sisters. The title is actually a book title by Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni.



A good book, but not my normal lite Chic Lit Genre, a bit too heavy for me. But very good writing I must say. This is my second experience of her writings, I say experience because my first was via the DVD, Mistress Of Spice, starring Aishwarya Rai, oops pardon me, Aishwarya Bachan and Dylan McDermott. Such a beautiful film, it didn't have much story line to me, had some tragic scenes, but beautifully made nevertheless. I just love her spice shop and Dylan, sigh!

So this book, it is very well written in such a way that you could just imagine all the details that the characters are experiencing. And it had such an expected twist in the end, which is quite clever actually. The ending is good in a way, but I don't really like that kind of ending. What kind of ending? Well, you just gotta read it yourself. Wouldn't want to spoil the suspense.

Something from the website:

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Divakaruni’s new novel is entitled Sister of My Heart. This book is about how the lives of two women are changed by marriage, as one woman comes to California, and the other stays behind in India.

Anju is the daughter of an upper-caste Calcutta family of distinction. Sudha is the daughter of the black sheep of that same family. Sudha is startlingly beautiful; Anju is not. Despite these differences, since the day the two girls were born—the same day their fathers died, mysteriously and violently—Sudha and Anju have been sisters of the heart. Bonded in ways even their mothers cannot comprehend, the two girls grow into womanhood as if their fates, as well as their hearts, are merged.


When Sudha learns a dark family secret, that connection is threatened. For the first time in their lives, the girls know what it is to feel suspicion and distrust—Sudha, because she feels a new shame that she cannot share with Anju; and Anju, because she discovers the seductive power of her sister’s beauty, a power Sudha herself is incapable of controlling. When, due to a change in family fortune, the girls are urged into arranged marriages, their lives take opposite turns. One travels to America, and one remains in India; both have lives of secrets. When tragedy strikes both of them, however, they discover that, despite distance and marriage, they must turn to each other once again.

Excerpt

Chapter 1

They say in the old tales that the first night after a child is born, the Bidhata Purush comes down to earth himself to decide what its fortune is to be. That is why they bathe babies in sandalwood water and wrap them in soft red malmal, color of luck. That is why they leave sweetmeats by the cradle. Silver-leafed sandesh, dark pantuas floating in golden syrup, jilipis orange as the heart of a fire, glazed with honey-sugar. If the child is especially lucky, in the morning it will all be gone.
“That’s because the servants sneak in during the night and eat them,” says Anju, giving her head an impatient shake as Abha Pishi oils her hair. This is how she is, my cousin, always scoffing, refusing to believe. But she knows, as I do, that no servant in all of Calcutta would dare eat sweets meant for a god.
The old tales say this also: In the wake of the Bidhata Purush come the demons, for that is the world’s nature, good and evil mingled. That is why they leave an oil lamp burning. That is why they place the sacred tulsi leaf under the baby’s pillow for protection. In richer households, like the one my mother grew up in, she has told us, they hire a brahmin to sit in the corridor and recite auspicious prayers all night.
“What nonsense,” Anju says. “There are no demons.”
I am not so sure. Perhaps they do not have the huge teeth, the curved blood-dripping claws and bulging red eyes of our Children’s Ramayan Picture Book, but I have a feeling they exist. Haven’t I sensed their breath, like slime-black fingers brushing my spine? Later, when we are alone, I will tell Anju this.
But in front of others I am always loyal to her. So I say, bravely, “That’s right. Those are just old stories.”
It is early evening on our terrace, its bricks overgrown with moss. A time when the sun hangs low on the horizon, half hidden by the pipal trees which line our compound walls all the way down the long driveway to the bolted wrought-iron gates. Our great-grandfather had them planted one hundred years ago to keep the women of his house safe from the gaze of strangers. Abha Pishi, one of our three mothers, has told us this.
Yes, we have three mothers—perhaps to make up for the fact that we have no fathers.
There’s Pishi, our widow aunt who threw herself heart-first into her younger brother’s household when she lost her husband at the age of eighteen. Dressed in austere white, her graying hair cut close to her scalp in the orthodox style so that the bristly ends tickle my palms when I run my hands over them, she’s the one who makes sure we are suitably dressed for school in the one-inch-below-the-knee uniforms the nuns insist on. She finds for us, miraculously, stray pens and inkpots and missing pages of homework. She makes us our favorite dishes: luchis rolled out and fried a puffy golden-brown, potato and cauliflower curry cooked without chilies, thick sweet payesh made from the milk of Budhi-cow, whose owner brings her to our house each morning to be milked under Pishi’s stern, miss-nothing stare. On holidays she plaits jasmine into our hair. But most of all Pishi is our fount of information, the one who tells us the stories our mothers will not, the secret, delicious, forbidden tales of our past.
There’s Anju’s mother, whom I call Gouri Ma, her fine cheekbones and regal forehead hinting at generations of breeding, for she comes from a family as old and respected as that of the Chatterjees, which she married into. Her face is not beautiful in the traditional sense—even I, young as I am, know this. Lines of hardship are etched around her mouth and on her forehead, for she was the one who shouldered the burden of keeping the family safe on that thunderclap day eight years ago when she received news of our fathers’ deaths. But her eyes, dark and endless-deep—they make me think of Kalodighi, the enormous lake behind the country mansion our family used to own before Anju and I were born. When Gouri Ma smiles at me with her eyes, I stand up straighter. I want to be noble and brave, just like her.
Lastly (I use this word with some guilt), there’s my own mother, Nalini. Her skin is still golden, for though she’s a widow my mother is careful to apply turmeric paste to her face each day. Her perfect-shaped lips glisten red from paan, which she loves to chew—mostly for the color it leaves on her mouth, I think. She laughs often, my mother, especially when her friends come for tea and talk. It is a glittery, tinkling sound, like jeweled ankle bells, people say, though I myself feel it is more like a thin glass struck with a spoon. Her cheek feels as soft as the lotus flower she’s named after on those rare occasions when she presses her face to mine. But more often when she looks at me a frown ridges her forehead between eyebrows beautiful as wings. Is it from worry or displeasure? I can never tell. Then she remembers that frowns cause age lines and smoothes it away with a finger.
Now Pishi stops oiling Anju’s hair to give us a wicked smile. Her voice grows low and shivery, the way it does when she’s telling ghost stories. “They’re listening, you know. The demons. And they don’t like little eight-year-old girls talking like this. Just wait till tonight . . .”
Because I am scared I interrupt her with the first thought that comes into my head. “Pishi Ma, tell no, did the sweets disappear for us?”
Sorrow moves like smoke-shadow over Pishi’s face. I can see that she would like to make up another of those outrageous tales that we so love her to tell, full of magic glimmer and hoping. But finally she says, her voice flat, “No, Sudha. You weren’t so lucky.”
I know this already. Anju and I have heard the whispers. Still, I must ask one more time.
“Did you see anything that night?” I ask. Because she was the one who stayed with us the night of our birth while our mothers lay in bed, still in shock from the terrible telegram which had sent them both into early labor that morning. Our mothers, lying in beds they would never again share with their husbands. My mother weeping, her beautiful hair tangling about her swollen face, punching at a pillow until it burst, spilling cotton stuffing white as grief. Gouri Ma, still and silent, staring up into a darkness which pressed upon her like the responsibilities she knew no one else in the family could take on.
To push them from my mind I ask urgently, “Did you at least hear something?”
Pishi shakes her head in regret. “Maybe the Bidhata Purush doesn’t come for girl-babies.” In her kindness she leaves the rest unspoken, but I’ve heard the whispers often enough to complete it in my head. For girl-babies who are so much bad luck that they cause their fathers to die even before they are born.
Anju scowls, and I know that as always she can see into my thoughts with the X-ray vision of her fiercely loving eyes. “Maybe there’s no Bidhata Purush either,” she states and yanks her hair from Pishi’s hands though it is only half-braided. She ignores Pishi’s scolding shouts and stalks to her room, where she will slam the door.
But I sit very still while Pishi’s fingers rub the hibiscus oil into my scalp, while she combs away knots with the long, soothing rhythm I have known since the beginning of memory. The sun is a deep, sad red, and I can smell, faint on the evening air, wood smoke. The pavement dwellers are lighting their cooking fires. I’ve seen them many times when Singhji, our chauffeur, drives us to school: the mother in a worn green sari bent over a spice-grinding stone, the daughter watching the baby, keeping him from falling into the gutter. The father is never there. Maybe he is running up a platform in Howrah station in his red turban, his shoulders knotted from carrying years of trunks and bedding rolls, crying out, “Coolie chahiye, want a coolie, memsaab?” Or maybe, like my father, he too is dead.
Whenever I thought this my eyes would sting with sympathy, and if by chance Ramur Ma, the vinegary old servant woman who chaperones us everywhere, was not in the car, I’d beg Singhji to stop so I could hand the girl a sweet out of my lunch box. And he always did.
Among all our servants—but no, I do not really think of him as a servant—I like Singhji the best. Perhaps it is because I can trust him not to give me away to the mothers the way Ramur Ma does. Perhaps it is because he is a man of silences, speaking only when necessary—a quality I appreciate in a house filled with female gossip. Or perhaps it is the veil of mystery which hangs over him.
When Anju and I were about five years old, Singhji appeared at our gate one morning—like a godsend, Pishi says—looking for a driver’s job. Our old chauffeur had recently retired, and the mothers needed a new one badly but could not afford it. Since the death of the fathers, money had been short. In his broken Bengali, Singhji told Gouri Ma he’d work for whatever she could give him. The mothers were a little suspicious, but they guessed that he was so willing because of his unfortunate looks. It is true that his face is horrifying at first glance—I am embarrassed to remember that as a little girl I had screamed and run away when I saw him. He must have been caught in a terrible fire years ago, for the skin of the entire upper half of his face—all the way up to his turban—is the naked, puckered pink of an old burn. The fire had also scorched away his eyebrows and pulled his eyelids into a slant, giving him a strangely oriental expression at odds with the thick black mustache and beard that covers the rest of his face.
“He’s lucky we hired him at all,” Mother’s fond of saying. “Most people wouldn’t have because that burned forehead is a sure sign of lifelong misfortune. Besides, he’s so ugly.”
I do not agree. Sometimes when he does not know that I am watching him, I have caught a remembering look, at once faraway and intent, in Singhji’s eyes—the kind of look an exiled king might have as he thinks about the land he left behind. At those times his face is not ugly at all, but more like a mountain peak that has withstood a great ice storm. And somehow I feel we are the lucky ones because he chose to come to us.
Once I heard the servants gossiping about how Singhji had been a farmer somewhere in Punjab until the death of his family from a cholera epidemic made him take to the road. It made me so sad that although Mother had strictly instructed me never to talk about personal matters with any of the servants, I ran out to the car and told him how sorry I was about his loss. He nodded silently. No other response came from the burned wall of his face. But a few days later he told me that he used to have a child.
Though Singhji offered no details about this child, I immediately imagined that it had been a little girl my age. I could not stop thinking of her. How did she look? Did she like the same foods we did? What kinds of toys had Singhji bought for her from the village bazaar? For weeks I would wake up crying in the middle of the night because I had dreamed of a girl thrashing about on a mat, delirious with pain. In the dream she had my face.
“Really, Sudha!” Anju would tell me, in concern and exasperation—I often slept in her room and thus the job of comforting me fell to her—“How come you always get so worked up about imaginary things?”
That is what she would be saying if she were with me right now. For it seems to me I am receding, away from Pishi’s capable hands, away from the solidity of the sun-warmed bricks under my legs, that I am falling into the first night of my existence, where Anju and I lie together in a makeshift cradle in a household not ready for us, sucking on sugared nipples someone has put in our mouths to keep us quiet. Anjali and Basudha, although in all the turmoil around us no one has thought to name us yet. Anjali, which means offering, for a good woman is to offer up her life for others. And Basudha, so that I will be as patient as the earth goddess I am named after. Below us, Pishi is a dark, stretched-out shape on the floor, fallen into exhausted sleep, the dried salt of tears crusting her cheeks.
The Bidhata Purush is tall and has a long, spun-silk beard like the astrologer my mother visits each month to find out what the planets have in store for her. He is dressed in a robe made of the finest white cotton, his fingers drip light, and his feet do not touch the ground as he glides toward us. When he bends over our cradle, his face is so blinding-bright I cannot tell his expression. With the first finger of his right hand he marks our foreheads. It is a tingly feeling, as when Pishi rubs tiger-balm on our temples. I think I know what he writes for Anju. You will be brave and clever, you will fight injustice, you will not give in. You will marry a fine man and travel the world and have many sons. You will be happy.
It is more difficult to imagine what he writes for me. Perhaps he writes beauty, for though I myself do not think so, people say I am beautiful—even more than my mother was in the first years of her marriage. Perhaps he writes goodness, for though I am not as obedient as my mother would like, I try hard to be good. There is a third word he writes, the harsh angles of which sting like fire, making me wail, making Pishi sit up, rubbing her eyes. But the Bidhata Purush is gone already, and all she sees is a swirl—cloud or sifted dust—outside the window, a fading glimmer, like fireflies.
Years later I will wonder, that final word he wrote, was it sorrow?


Hmmm enough to make you want to read the book??

Go get it at a bookstore nearest to you!!! he!he! wanna borrow mine? Sorry, no can do, I borrowed it myself.